Where to go from here?
What is the difference between a person who asks, “Where to go from here?” and expects the answer to come to him and a person who asks the same and expects the answer from herself?
Ultimate freedom brings with it a huge burden of personal responsibility. One can easily get lost without a proper sense of direction. Even then, with a compelling vision of epic grandeur, there are those demonic details to deal with in day to day affairs that seem to hinder any kind of progress towards the realisation of that vision.
I feel I had started what I have started on a false start. But then I thought everyone has to start somewhere. My start had not been the most by-the-book but it was a decent start anyway. I am blessed with a brilliant mind but cursed with procrastination, perfectionism and unconscious progress-hindering deliberation. But I am slowly working on that. Maybe too slowly.
If I can, I will hire people to handle the devilish details of my ideas for me while I generate newer, greater and more revolutionary ideas at the speed of light. But I am not the inheritor of some vast fortune. Apparently, providence sees fit to bestow absurd wealth upon the affluent hedonistic who squander it away while brilliant minds are tortured by their hungry stomachs and potential messiahs amongst third world countries die malnourished. She knows naught about the important historical details of her own homeland let alone the plights and realities of her fellow citizens yet the people of her country go crazy over her antics and throw their hard-earned cash (and lives away) to enrich her. A seeker who has found the simple answer in nature that will end human dependence on fossil fuels and hence the wars that are fought for control of its sources go uncredited, intimidated, eventually murdered by clandestine entities whose sole purpose is profit at all cost - even human lives. This is the way of the world.
But I am not complaining. I am speaking the truth. Do you question it? If no one in the world speaks the truth, how can we ever progress? Yet there are those who abuse their truth-speaking abilities by not acting upon the truths they speak of.
But all this is small. Insignificant. None of this matters. At all. Cosmic rays bombard the planets indiscriminately. The sun burns saint, sinner, hedonist, altruist, tyrant, freedom fighter and the dead alike. Or does it? Nature may be indiscriminate but the tools and technologies of Man seem to serve only the few who have gained leverage over them at the expense of or in oblivion to the dispensable many.
Where is the man who never ceases to ask the important questions? Who seeks the very secrets of the soul and the universe that it perceives? Who champions freedom from all forms of tyranny - tangible or otherwise? Who reforms corrupted characters towards righteousness? Who expects nothing more from life than the love and decent company of family and children? Where is he?
Consumed by consumerism. Swallowed by unnecessary obligations. Ripped apart by bondage to the rice bowl. Fishing to feed his family. Broken by the whips and strangled by the chains of the few.
The oldest tyrant in history still stands. The Pharaoh of Pharaohs. The Enlightened Eye Upon The Pyramid.